My Love Letter to My Loving GOD

I am posting below a letter which I had written to GOD a year back(Ofcourse didnt post it though :) ). Yesterday I happened to come across this letter safely placed inside a book. I read it and suddenly felt so good about life. Thought why not post it and treasure it forever instead of "discovering" it after ages in tatters. Here it goes:

Hei My dear god,

Hope ur fine as i do. This letter is to to tell me rather u how much I love you.

You know why I love you cos i love myself somuch. This letter is to reinforce myself the things i owe you and my gratitude for u. You have given me somuch in my life. Hey my life itself was a gitf from you. Countless blessings. Every moment i smile i owe it to you. I had always felt your presence with me.

My body, mind, heart, knowledge, parents, sisters, friends, mentors, peacefulmind,love...........the list goes endless jus like your love for me. I didnt know you loved me somuch to shower all this upon me. You are my master making a master piece out of me. Every inch of gorwth i have rediscovered a new self in me. How many times would i have made misatkes, and every time u loved me more and taught me ways to rectify. I have just one wish lord, Day by day in every way my love for you should grow multifold, express itself through love towards fellow humans and one day lord find you in me, see me as you. Comon lets start playing the Hide and Seek. :)

Enga veetu ayanaaru

kavalkaaka ooru elayila, aruva endhi nina sami pola
kanji ootha engaluku, ooru elai thandi ponavane!
potapullai moonu pethen,rasa avagala karayethavo nee vandha?
kula deiva sami pola, kooda ninnu pathukita

pooti vecha kaalayum, nee vedhacha boomiyum nee vara kathiruku,
vanam kooda nee vitu ponadhala vaadi poyi azhudhurichu
soru podum aatha ava soli azhudhuputta
somandhu petha aatha na ena soli azha?

thaniya irukomunu thavichu pogatha ayya
indha thai usuru unaku thunaiku nikum dhane
kadudhasi kanduputu kalangi pochu en manasu
padika ariyalaye indha paavi maga ena seiven?

pasam puriya baashai thevayila
un kagitham thoongudhaiya en mundhanaikula!!
nedham na padum thaalata thoodhu viten kathula
vandhu sendhucho seraliyo en pulla kaadhukula

ponga paanai vechu kathirupen vandhidayya
indha pavi maga nejuku aarudhal kooridayya
nee varum desai pathu enguthaiya thai manasu
na thekku noki poagaikula vandhidaya na un mugam paaka!!!!

The Chaplin smiles....

It was a friday evening when i returned home with mixed feelings of a exhausted weekday and a thrill for the oncoming weekend. I had several plans for the weekend, a treat from my friend at a star hotel, a get-together with my friends after a long time and many more..

With all anticipations and plans to get freaky this weekend I entered my house.
There I happened to witness the most unexpected thing - my father fainting and losing his consiousness.suddenly all the tiredness of the day disappeared and a sheer sense of responsibility rose when i found my sister and mom crying.We rushed him to a nearby hospital and then shifted to a bigger one for better and intensive care.
Thankfully it was nothing serious. That weekend which i had planned out to relax turned out to be extended days of responsiblity. I had to travel to and fro from the hospital, cook, take care of my granny and also run abt all the floors of the hospital to ensure the medclaim was obtained.

I was totally exhausted and tired and was returning back home from the hospital in one of those aftrenoons when i took lunch to my dad.I was waiting for an auto or a bus to come to get back home and finish off the household chores.

As i was waiting i saw a little kid of about 4 yrs old, his face covered with dust , hands infected, shabby hair , and soiled clothes. There was a lot of enthusisam in his face that made every other marks that poverty and street dweling has left on his tender body look mild. He was there with nothing with him hunger in his eyes, yet Happy, singing and running with a lot of enthusiasm.

His presence and acts made me smile. He caught just a distant glimpse of me smiling at him and immediately came running towards me.He came and stood next to me and pulled out his hands from his tattered shorts and asked for money.


What shall i do? Praise his intelligence trying to profit out of my attention towards him or feel bad for having to meet such a shrewd kid in such a pitiable situation?
I didnt know what to say. His eyes pleaded out of hunger. I never encourage beggary. So i asked him if he would take food if i buy him?
Initially he denied. Then after few minutes knowing that he wouldnt get money he agreed for this deal.
I bought him Bun with whatever cash i had at that time and gave him.
The First question that fell off his mouth was "where did you buy this?" "which shop akka?"
I was reluctant to answer since I felt the kid might take this back to exchange for money.

I asked him to eat. Again he hesitated stating the Bigger boys would grab it from him if he ate it here.
He said he would take it home and eat. I insisted in him eating there and assured him that I would wait till he gobbles up the last morsel. He hesitantly started eating.

Curious I asked him about his family. To my surprise this child was going to school. After school he begs and takes back home the money. His mother and a younger sister are also involved in such activities and his father works.
Where are we heading? Are'nt schools teaching about self respect and value of labour? I spoke with the kid for few more minutes. Then I took an auto back home. Not for the little money i had spent to feed the child , but for the child to understand atleast in a subtle way the value of labour I asked him to load my little bag into the auto which he did happily.


His face was lit with a bright smile that I can never forget. The last thing that he never hesitated to tell was his name, "chaplin". The Great charlie chaplin had so many worries despite his comic fame. Hope this chaplin grows out of his surroundings and create a great history. He waved goodbye to me and left, but his thoughts didnt.

The Kid could some day become a marketing giant. When he could catch a glimpse of a smile and try to materialise it at a tender age of 5 what cant he achieve?
What has taught him this.. His poverty or the survival need or was he made for something much bigger?

Who has the answer to this? What can be done from our side to bring to light such young and energetic hearts?

Lets take the first step. Lets do what we can to brighten up futures. I have decided to take up education of one deserving child and do my best to free him/her from the claws of poverty and hence his future generations. What about you?

Back Again

Yipeeee!!!!! I am back after a very very very looooooooooooong break. I have to confess that i was lazy enough to write something though thoughts kept running. Anyways back in full Josh !!!!

Thanks to my sister who encouraged me for writing further, or else i would have been procastinating this writing job..... :)

Changing Perceptions


Yesterday when i reached home i found myself left all alone. Struck by boredom i was humming a song and loitering in my room. I happened to have a look at the "geetha saaram" hung on the wall. Initially i just ignored it and continued to strain my vocal chords and my neighbours' eardrums....to the best of my ability. Something made me look at it again and i started to contemplate on the geetha saaram. I have read this note many a times all through my life and it was only yesterday it struck me that each time it has always been giving me a new set of messages. A few years ago when i was just 15 the only meaning that i could perceive out of it was " all that happens happens for good"especially to console myself on small petty issues and problems that i had to face at that point of time.

A few years back i had the previlege of attending a wholistic development training session (by Almamater) which happened to be a turning point in myview towards life. I had been receiving a lot of messages from the trainer and one of them which i could never relate was what he called "changing perceptions". The message was that we generally try to judge others all the time and perceive certain things about them which we never change over a period of time even when the person has changed. One of the profound examples he would give is about a boss who had actually brought in a new boy to work, mentored him and taught him all skills but at a later period failed to realise that he is no more a boy fresh out of graduation running to him for help in all matters.Lately he happens to face the day when the guy quits the job due to lack of freedom and recognition at workplace. It was the boss' perception that he was still a boy who needed help ,failing to change his perception as the boy has grown and is capable of handling challenging situations all by himself!!!

As young as 17 i could never imagine or contemplate about changing people and changing perceptions about them. So i simply used to enjoy listening to a nice story and sharing the message and this story to all my friends at college. I found myself comfortable with other good things i managed to learn from the forum. I could not get the message to its fullest potent because i could never relate any real time incidents with the message.

Yesterday was the chosen day I believe for the shell which I had collected years back to be born as a diamond that I would always be bejewelled with. Left alone at home in utter solitude, without any calls from mom to arrange something or to lend a helping hand at cooking, I just sat looking at the wall hang carrying in it a sea of wisdom. It was a profound moment in which i chose to lose myself in thoughts .....The gita saaram gave me different meaning altogether...it was not only that but it sparked the thought of changing perceptions.....I could now relate to people and incidents that had happened in my life and actually understand how in certain cases i had failed to change my views and judgemnets about few of my friends!!
I also understood that with age and maturity the way people look at the same thing differs!!!

Thanks to my trainer, thanks to the everlasting message that krishna has left behind to this world.

Well to say what made me write this blog is i saw few people in the recent past brooding over rejections and loss.

For all who are like these friends of mine i have something to say!All of us at one point of time or the other lose something which we may gain back or not . But inspite of losing everything in this world there is something which makes us look forward and live life. what is it?

what is the force that keeps driving us?

A person may lose his family, his wealth, and everything but continues to live. The reason is:

" I may lose anything in life and not ME".

"Till such time i continue to live........

I create my world everytime i lose it or everytime a change occurs. I am capable of going ahead inspite of my past failures and rejections"

So if we keep in mind that we are free to create ourselves out of every situation in life what is the need to brood about loss and rejections?

In life i take roles and live , like a son, father, husband etc etc
For eg if my son dies i lose a ROLE of life and NOT myself
I continue to live...

I am the centre of my existence and i create my feelings
So let us move ahead keeping in my mind "I lose nothing unless i lose myself".

Hi all!!
I have created this blog to share my views with u all.

I am what i am!
Sure enough my unique identity is stamped in this world and so are others'.
When we know what we are and the way we are is good enough why most of the times do we become hypocratic in our views and actions?
Be your self coz u r unique among the millions who are walking, walked and will walk this little palnet!!!!!!